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Followers! I love you all. It was great talking to all of you in the past. I haven’t been on in forever, though, and have started a new blog. I’ll give out my new personal blog soon, but for now I would like to show you guys my self-help blog. It is currently being redone, so there aren’t any posts,  but check it out!  I’ll check in soon. ♡
http://1000reasonstolive.tumblr.com

Just a short thought…And Question.

Didn’t I start this blog intending to go into perspectives and deep philosophical issues? Right now it’s mostly poetry with some personal things. Should I get back to the core, or stick with my poetry?

Complications surround my life in it’s entirety.

Okay. It has been quite a while. Somehow, I got off track. Not just off track posting wise, but in my whole life. My life has been going down hill lately, and I couldn’t discover a reason as to why this was happening. Just today, I realized it all. It’s my fault- I am Letting it happen. I’m not blaming myself in some bad way, but I know I am guilty of this. I have had the opportunity to change, but for some reason I haven’t taken it. 

Maybe it is time. 

I feel like it is time to change. I’ve been thinking about ‘change’ for quite a  while now, but haven’t really thought about it. I haven’t delved deep.

Why am I using weird words? This grammar probably makes no sense. Excuse me for this. I am keeping this post raw, though. Just gonna let it flow, and keep it unedited. That’s how I like my work. 

Alright. So diving into the change. I realize there are many things I need to change about myself and my lifestyle. Diet, exercise, yadda yadda. Those things are SO important, as I’m becoming unhealthy, but I think the most important thing right now is my mind. I feel like my mind is un-developing itself. I feel like I am in no way as smart or clever as I used to be. So this should be my prime focus.

This is pretty much just me thinking out loud (~typing as I think). So you guys can get a feel for where I am at. Anyway~I can’t focus.

I guess to improve my mind I should start reading more. Writing more. Apparently that is my conclusion. It isn’t really the answer, though. I think I just need to process things more. Like I am doing right now. Writing, actually thinking things through. Though my thoughts are all Jumbled and don’t make the best sense, at least I am thinking things over. I haven’t done much of that lately. 

So that must be my new conclusion. Think. Think about things. Learn about things. Then think more. Think about and process everything that passes by and through me. This should be good for me, I think.

 

OKAY. On other news. I have other issues! Woo. But they are issues I am solving. As I said at the beginning, I have been going downhill. I have lost myself. Besides things mentioned, I realize there is one very big issue at the middle of it all. It is Love. 

Yes, Love for myself. I looked through a bunch of my old photo albums on my computer. Comparing last year to this year. Last year I seemed so happy- genuinely happy- and proud of myself. This year, I’m just in a slump, with self-hatred all around. I need to start LOVING myself. How did I not realize that this was the problem?

I should probably think more on my own. I have so much in my mind at the moment. But here you go, guys. A bit into my crazy mind. I’ll have more craziness, and hopefully some new real work (poetry, short stories, things) soon. And I promise this time! I’ll be back up soon. 🙂 Take care. Hope you appreciate my jumble, haha. 

 

 

I can’t see anything

Hey! I have a few posts coming, maybe pictures and things as well. Why haven’t I posted? So many excuses. My current excuse is that I cannot see. Such dry eyes, eye drops won’t help. My contacts. My head. Constant BLINKING. Oh, dear. Anyway, please excuse any grammar issues and things, as my eyes aren’t working too well. My mind is also a big pile of mush. So yeah! I have a post I’m working on. Hope you guys are still there! 

Comments and such are appreciated once the new posts are up. Thanks, guys. I’ll be checking out your blogs more Soon. 

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New posts & Thanks

Hey, everyone! It has been quite a while, but I see I’m still getting views, likes, and comments! I wanted to say thanks to everyone who has stock by me. I’ll have new posts in the next coupe days 🙂 Thanks again.

Civil Rights Should Not Be Privileges

 

The United States seems to consist of a lot more gay people than most people think. With studies averaging around ten to twenty percent, and polls suggesting that twenty five percent of adults are homosexual, it seems we need to adjust to these terms (Morales). Homosexual people are often discriminated against. Most people do not realize that being gay is not a choice, but determined by genetics and environmental aspects. Gay bullying is a big issue in our culture.

            A more controversial issue in culture is gay marriage.

Using Your Mind and Body to Cope with Anxiety

Whether someone is starting a new job, or they are just walking into their local coffee shop, anxiety is always able to occur. It could arise in any situation and is often present to some extent. Once it gets to a certain point, the anxiety becomes overpowering and hard to manage. It is important to understand anxiety and know how to cope with it. The first thing that must be done is making sure people need to know what it is. The best way to explain anxiety is to identify it as a feeling of worry or stress. It may be worry of how a specific event will ensue, or it may be a fear of an imagined danger. Since anxiety may come around at any point in time, coping skills are becoming vastly necessary. To cope, it is best to use a process which involves realization and de-escalation. Once the process is learned, anybody can become healthier and more proficient at handling their anxiety.

 

Polls Needed!

Polls:

• Please Describe Yourself (Gender, Age, Residency)
• Mental Health
• Sexual Orientation/Identity
• Interests
• Etc.

The first four are the most important. The results are to be used for blogging purposes as well as future essays/writings I will do. Some statistics may be used in my writings.

It should take less than a minute to complete. Please help out.

The first one is below. All others will be found on my poll page: https://feministperspective.wordpress.com/polls/

Thanks in advance.

Hello There

Greetings Everyone

Hey! How is everyone doing today? I’ve been very busy lately. I’m currently at my father’s house, writing an essay. This weekend has been pretty busy: celebrating my cousin’s birthday, driving places, sleeping :p etc.. But I’ll be back on soon.

So, as I mentioned, I am writing an essay. It is about coping with anxiety. It will be put up on 100reasonstolive.wordpress.com as well as on here. It should be on tonight or tomorrow morning. I’m looking forward to comments.

So, if anybody reads this, I have a Request for you. I will be writing another essay soon that will need interviews and [personal] statistics. If any of you could go to my polls page ( https://feministperspective.wordpress.com/polls/ ) it would really help me out. The polls are anonymous so I will not know who answers what- Don’t worry about that! So please do that for me if possible.

Tl;Dr– Please do some polls. Also, my essay will be up soon.

Thanks, very much! ~Ashley

 

 

Choke

I want to get away from you

And those hands of yours pulling me

In too close where I have no space

Of my own to think and breathe alone.

 

The grip you hold on me is too tight

As to where most times I can barely breathe

And you even choke me sometimes at night-

I guess so I cannot leave your sight.

 

This suffocation is becoming too hard to

Handle and I don’t know how long I can manage

These feelings and this pain of being kept locked

Up in this disaster of a place with you, sir.

 

Just release me from your grip before

I grip your neck, myself, and strangle

You the way you do to me every day which

You do in such a cruel and natural way.

 

I’ve had it with your means and if I cannot

Find a way to escape your clutch I will cross

You in a demonic way until you are fed up with

My stay and let me leave your cruel dwelling place.

 

When I am gone I will be free of your hold

But you will not be free of mine, so if you dare

Control another girl, then those actions of yours

Will surely reciprocate and you will finally feel the choke.